<215> So I'm definitely freaking out. It is... 5:18am... and I am preparing for a day.. and an experience that may just well determine if I really am cut out to be a scientist. What a weird way of looking at it.. but it's kinda true. I'm very excited but also deathly scared. We shall see. I'm currently reading up on microtubules. Fun stuff, no? This is what I have done with my break and this is what I will be doing from today on. My vacation is over.

On a brighter note, I am back at school.. if only for one day. I was on duty tonight... or last night... or whatever you wanna call it. It was nice to see some of my suitemates again.. and also to have a decent internet connection. They guys actually just left to go to McDonalds.. and offered to get me some coffee, which is much needed at the moment.

Pamela is right, I think. College does make you abandon xanga. But I for one always seem to come back when I have experienced way too many things to even remember what to say anymore, which ends up with me just saying nothing... everythings fine.... just the usual. O_o.

I'm still nervous. And I still have to read about the tubulin sequence.. so I'm gonna go. Happy 2007, folks.

<214> Since I have nothing pressing left to do.. especially since I'm waiting for my laundry to finish drying.. I will update. There have been some highlights to my week - one of them being the fact that I got to see Crystal. I was online a few nights ago and she im-ed me. She wanted to know if I could go get her at her school to bring her home. I dunno if she thought I wouldn't.. but I did. It's a 3 hour drive but it felt like nothing once I got to Cobleskill. She showed me around.. introduced me to Endy / Boozer / whatever his name is now (her kitty). On the way back I remembered that I wanted to get my nipple pierced at her crush's tattoo place. So we went back.. and I got it done. It hurt like hell - but it looks good and doesn't hurt anymore. $45 well worth it.

The drive back to queens felt like an hour - even though it was 3 and a half. I got to play with mr. Endy and catch up with her - and I realized how much I had missed her. I'm glad she doesn't let me push her away. :)

We got some dunkin donuts and some pizza form Domino's and went over to her house. I couldn't really stay long cause I had to be back at school. My time spent with her so far was mostly on the road driving, but it was a lot of fun. I was very happy.

On a darker note, I have come to realize that I dont really have many friends here. Yeah, I know just about EVERYBODY, but that doesn't mean that I can think of most of them as true friends. It's kinda sad, but when I think about it, it's not so bad. I was always that way, I think. It's just a lot harder now without Crystal there all the time. But yeah, it's not such a bad thing. It helps me keep a level head when everyone else is having problems or troubles. I've been told that it's nice to have someone.. neutral. Whatever that means.

I do have a few close friends - but surprisingly enough, another highlight came just last night from an unexpected person. A friend of a friend, actually. Kinda helps me keep on having faith in people. Which is always nice. I'm just waiting to see what may come of all this.

I've been working in the lab a lot recently. I know I usually am, anyway - but even more so lately. A different lab, too - cell culture. It feels good to know that I am actually not so bad at it. It's also kinda scary, though - mostly because it's giving me a glimpse into the future. The stuff I may be doing 10 years for now, where I might be working, and on what. Scary, but also kinda comforting.

Well, laundry should be done by now. I've said enough. And I have plenty of work to do now that I think about it. Midterms have come and gone (what a nightmare).. but now we're back to having the usual papers and stuff being due. Good stuff, right? Way better than 5 midterms anyway. I hope everyone's doing ok. =) Bye.

Currently Listening Everything You Want By Vertical Horizon see related

<213> Columbus Day weekend. It's been pretty interesting. I've had a camping trip planned for a couple of months now, and it's finally happened. I never actually went camping - last year we were supposed to go, but we only did the second 'activity' which was canoeing. We did that this year, too. That was a lot of fun. This 'outing' is with my scholarship people. Every year we have a similar... outing. On Saturday I got to see Crystal, though. It was really nice - but I only got to hang out for a little while. We ended up going to Target, and I bought XMen 3 and the Lake House... and LOTS of pixie sticks.

The most interesting thing about the weekend took place last night. Me and the other students were all huddled around the campfire (so cliche, no? I didn't think it actually happened) telling ghost stories and urban legends. It was actually pretty scary - the surroundings weren't helping us, either. Everytime we paused we heard some sort of noise coming from the trees. Crazy. But yeah, I had plenty of stories myself. Everyone was telling their myths and legends from their hometown / country - I had a couple, too - but I had a few about Manhattanville. I dont particularly believe that my school is haunted... but some scary shit goes on sometimes.

Funniest part was when my friend Allen took out his... pipe... and started smoking (getting 'blazed', no?). Not something I was surprised about - but what I didn't expect was for him to pass it around... and have the new freshmen actually.... try it. Way to be a role-model, Allen. But yeah - and then he held it out towards me. I kinda just looked at him... and eventually he got the hint. The stuff really does make you slow.

Today we woke up around 9:30am, had breakfast, and drove up into Connecticut towards the canoeing place. I forget the name of the swamp - but it's really nice. I really liked it last year - but this time around it was so much better. Mostly because the weather was really nice. Got wet, got stuck by some trees, got out, went all the way around. I got kinda tan, too.

And now I'm back... and I'm on duty. Which is fine. It's crazy how all the school stuff comes right back. As soon as we turned into campus all the thoughts of midterms, papers, and tests popped into my head. Crazy. But yeah, midterm week is pretty much here - and I have yet to open up a freaking book. But I will... soon. That's all I guess. Felt like updating. Needed to pass the time. Woohoo... so far 30 minutes gone. I still have to sit here till 11pm. We'll see how that goes.

<212> A long 2 weeks comes to a close as tonight comes and goes. I have survived my second RA Training, and my first Freshman Check-in, and am currently surviving Upperclassmen Check-in. I am more than tired, I'm drained. Classes start tomorrow also. I'm really happy about that - but also kinda nervous. I'm taking some really hard bio and psych classes this semester - and i need to do well.

Anyways - good luck to all those coming to college for the first time. And good luck to the returners as well. I hope this year is the best one yet. =)

<211> I just noticed that in 10 more days, my xanga will be 4 years old. That's kinda crazy. Four years ago, I was a still a freshman in high school waiting for the year to end. Now... well, now Freshman year of college is over.. and has been for a couple of weeks... Oh, and I'm a little taller, too.

I'm writing from home right now. I drove Nick to the airport this afternoon and figured I'd come home and go back on Monday in time for summer school. Now that I mention it, that's something that's definitely different from four years ago. Back then, summer school meant I did something bad. Nowadays, summer school means I'm doing something good. Crazy stuff.

I just finished reading up on some of my old friends' entries - I can't believe I missed the Spring Concert at Beach Channel. What was I doing last night? Probably packing - and watching SVU. Anywho, I was formulating a plan in my head as I was driving home this afternoon.. so that I would go to Channel tomorrow morning.. and then I remembered that I can't really get in there anymore.

I find myself going back in time a lot lately. Somehow, as I was going through the process of enrolling for summer classes and summer housing, I landed a job teaching kids and helping them review for their - wait for it - EARTH SCIENCE REGENTS. Right away I was reminded of JHS 226... especially crazy old Ms. Archer (and her crazy weaves). I was given two books to help me refresh my memory: the blue and red Barron's books. Holy shit - I tried taking one of the practice regents... and I didn't get past question 3. I don't remember anything. So now I have the wonderful task of learning it all over again... but this time, for a generous salary. Which is always nice, no?

Anywho, I'm getting a little bored with this entry. Let me know what you think. Oh and PS: Congrats to the Beach Channel HS band on an amazing performance. From what I read... it was one of the best ones yet. Oh, and plus, I saw some pictures.